Sunday, February 12, 2012

Forget A Chapter, It's A Book

Without too much ado or details, because I am mentally frazzled, I am now at liberty to share what has been going on in my life. Why now? Because the other person involved (my spouse) and myself finally got real. The major major, I am beginning the process of becoming divorced. It is taking over my life and all of my energy. There are decisions to make, and lawyers, and legal advice, and relatives opinions to deal with. There is pain, and anger, and upheaval, and sorrow. There is loss, and loss, and loss, and loss. 

However, there is also HOPE, and wonder, and relief, and a little excitement. There will be a name change for this little blog, although I am not sure what yet or when. 

The priority, right now, is to keep only my toes in the ocean and not feel like I am drowning in the deep end on my own anymore. 

Relief from the pain.

That is my goal right now.

Healthy relief from the sorrow.

Yes, this is my decision. Yes, this will be my path to bear. 

I am ready and for the first time, in my 37 year old life, I FINALLY understand the difference  between being ALONE and LONELY. I can handle being alone on my own now, but I cannot accept being lonely in a room when I am not alone anymore. Life is to short.

A special thank you to all of you who have commented and emailed. You have made the past few weeks easy to navigate. Thank you for being my friends and a shoulder to lean on. 

I am going to be giving myself a break from the blogging world for a bit. I am finding that while taking the pictures is a terrific distraction I cannot focus to edit, organize, or post. I just can't seem to do it right now. There is nothing extra to give. So I hope you will stick around while I go into my dormant state. I will be back. The next two months will be the biggest transition for us and than, hopefully, things will take a new path to a new form of normal.

I will still be reading, but if you don't hear from me as often please know that I am thinking of you and wishing you all the best.

Any tips of terrific blogs or sites that have helped to get you through a difficult time would be greatly appreciated right now. Anything funny would be appreciated as well. A laugh or two would be nice right about now:)